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HIM - Salt In Our Wounds

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Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Parents

Looks like we are all trying to get in better shape in some way or form. Got my dad to start running with me during the evenings. He is doing a good job considering i live in a place with lots of gradual hills. Limited my jiu jitsu training just to being my dads coach and sparring with him on Saturdays. Its been working out pretty well so far. I just hate how my allergies are really acting up. Its becoming fall so gotta adjust to the wheater even tho I love the cold. My mom lost 7 pounds to start out with. I am very proud of her. I just gotta get her to do yoga I think she would like that. I currently like somewhat being the head workout instructor to my parents and helping them. They gotta start working out in my shirts tho hahahaha.

I'm in school now as well. Taking a computer class which overall isnt that bad and a Japanese Civilization class which is interesting. Of course I don't like working on homework but it is what it is. K until the next time that I have anything on my mind

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Nada

Just waiting for this download this finished, been hella bored lately. I've been training running pretty frequently but thats about it. Haven't been using this blog thing because I've been concentrating on writing in this journal. Sometimes u just go through life when nothing is outta the extraordinary. Had a fun 4th of July party but been having trouble with cars. It sucks alot. Will update when anything new happens

Monday, April 29, 2013

Death Card



The skeletal spectre of Death arrives by boat, wrapped in the mysterious cloak of Manannan. The dead are then conveyed back to the Land of Youth by a sea-god, who changes his appearance with his magic cloak to create the grim aspect of Death. But the journey about to begin is the transmigration of the soul - according to Celtic belief. Drawings of solar ships have been discovered on standing stones in Brittany and Ireland which are identical to early Egyptian hieroglyphics denoting the Cult of the Dead - a belief in the immortality of the soul.

Julius Caesar had dismissed the Celts as a semi-barbarous people, but he had been impressed by their Druids' knowledge of medicine and scholarly learning. He had been particulary fascinated to discover the Druids' view of death as similar to Pythagoras' and wrote: "The principle point of their life (the Druids') teaching is that the soul does not perish, and after death - it passes from one body to another."
These few lines pick up the idea of the Death card - a transition of life rather than physical death. Death is a disturbing card however; it indicates having to suffer some kind of loss, which can be a devastating experience. The astrological sign of scorpio, a water sign, is attributed to Death, and the Druids identified it as the sign of The Reed. A symbol of being submerged in water and yet retaining the ability to breathe is another significant comparison.

One of the two figures waiting on the shore is King Arthur and the lady holding the lamp represents the dawn of Christianity. To the Celts, King Arthur represented an important time of transition in their own evolutionary journey. King Arthur was the first great Christian King of the Celtic people, and his meeting with Death is symbolic of a new Golden Age about to begin.

Ancient Britain was considered by the Gauls and continental tribes to be a sacred burial place of "the Gods" and a place where gods still roamed on earth. A glimpse of the ghostly white cliffs, and the sudden descent of mist which hovered over the dividing water, was enough to keep intruding races away for several centuries. The Breton fishermen today still talk about the legend of ferrying their dead over to the shores of "Alba Longa" - the name of ancient Britain.

The mysterious figure-head of the boat is the Celtic god Janus, the God of the Underworld, whose role was as both a guardian and initiator of Death. The mermaid figure swimming alongside the boat is reminiscent of the Lady of the Lake, as she raises her arm to greet Arthur. Her presence perhaps defines something of the mystical element of Death.
Dignified: It indicates a transformation of a situation that can herald new beginnings. Past events have finally been brought under control and the querent can make the changes necessary to live or to evolve rather than remained cocooned in the past.

Ill-Dignified: The querent is lacking real purpose and seeks an easy way out of a current situation. Not facing up to a situation will create a destructive cycle for self and others. Loss of life or property cannot be ruled out if the neighbouring cards are negative.

The Death card is an important point of self-realization; it raises the question of whether to hang on to something not worth having. The symbol of the rising Sun in the card is a reminder that something is both finished and about to begin all over again.

Tarot Card Meanings

This is just something I am doing because I have a slight interest in it. I'm just doing this to have some kind of activity that I can do that wouldn't kill a lot of my time. Also to give me some kind of a hobby that doesn't involve rigorous training or overthinking too much. I feel like I need something in these times of monotomy.  Plus I just like the artwork. Got the celtic pack.

BTW This next friday I am getting that Oni tattoo for a pretty good deal, so i'm xxxcited

Saturday, April 6, 2013

8 ta 5

Got a new job working with my dad again. I started around 2 weeks ago. Everything seems to be going good so far. Only sucky thing is this week I'm starting to have mass allergies again and cant train. Plus now my sleep schedule is all messed up. I was falling asleep at like 8pm. I guess I'm still getting used to working 8 to 5 again. No anxiety so far so I'm gonna keep riding this train till something else will occupy my time I guess. Cant wait to get my first full paycheck. Prob gonna get this to practice on grappling when ever I want or get an oni tattoo.
Been listening to this album by The Gathering called Disclosure to help ease my mind. Not bad actually.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Veni Vidi Vici

Yes for all you Killah Kam fanatics that love my ass and follow my blog to know what the hell I'm up to. Wanted to say I left my cosmetology program. Yea I may have wrote a couple entrees about the school in some blogs in the past. But, fate has but me at a new position in my life to perhaps do something even more meaningful. I entered the program due to wanting to help people and make people feel confident about themselves. I feel I entered for the correct reasons and at the time my anxiety was under control. After constant months at the program it came back and left me in a position I couldn't recover from even though I tried. I was also starting to have extreme confrontation with the companies main headquarters up in Minnesota. I knew once they denied me an academic adjustment that would of helped me tremendously, I knew my experience wasn't going to get better. I did what I could to try to save it like switch to part time but it was just too late. Those people down at Minnesota basically kicked me out of the program after being on alert 1 and not alert 2 like it should of been. These guys basically did not let me know about this and I feel like had I been told they would think I would sit on my ass and not make them anymore money. I feel pretty disrespected because had I known that I would get kicked out after being on alert 1, I would of never even tried to do all of these pincurl sets just so I would make 50 percent in the program. I feel disrespected because they kicked me out without even calling any of the campus managers to see how much better I was doing at part time. Due to this alone I'm not going to put up with this any longer from these people. I loved my campus but majorly disliked the headquarters. I'm not one to cower in fear and I'm a strong believer in things happening for a reason. I came, kicked some ass, and left how I wanted to, with my skull mask.

Now it seems like i am on a new journey to help my dad get this business in order. I hope we will be able to do it like we did with Eiledon during 2011 and 12. I already had my first day at it and everyone seems really nice and kind. I am helping the tribe in my area and it seems like it has potential. I just hope it can be realized. I know I can do this but of course my mind is trying to convince me otherwise. I am not gonna let that happen. Maybe with some paychecks that I save, I can take Michelle and I up to Okinawa heheheh

Song of the day

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Inferno XXVI

Consider the Seed of your generation. You were not born to live like animals, but to pursue virtue and possess knowledge.




Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Moonspell Concert Review

Went to see Moonspell this last Sunday for my anniversary with my girlfriend. The drive over was fun. Before we got to the venue, I went to this martial arts store that had a lot of high quality merchandise. I will be back to spend some money. Plus I want one of these
Then when we got to the venue we saw this bridge which was over a river ravine. I took pics but my phone is being stupid and not uploading them to my email address. So, I've never been to this venue and was surprise to learn that it was an outside small venue. It got real cold real fast as it got darker. I didnt care much but I had to convince the security guards to let my girlfriend go back to her car and get her jacket. Before the show started I bought some merch for decent prices cuz I had to represent. Moonspell is my fucking band.
 
Well lets get on with the bands. Death Wolf was the first official band that played I enjoyed them and their sound, sorta sounded dark with a punk feel, will be checking them out. 2nd was a group called The Foreshadowing from Italy. I was surprised because well I like the dark gothic vibe and these guys definately reminded me of My Dying Bride. Pretty Cool. Next was Inquistion from Colombia and they were pretty much your typical black metal band. They might be a little too "dark" for me but musically they were tight Then Moonspell came on. They were good but I think they were having some technical difficulty which led them to have a shorter set unfortunately. Wanted to hear Lickanthrope but was happy as hell that they played Night Eternal cuz that was the song that got me into them. It was funny I was death metal screaming the hell outta the chorus to that song. NIIIIIGGHHHTTTT ETERNAL ARE WORLD IS BURRRNNINNNGG!!!!!!!!!!! LOLZ. Loved them even tho it was short to me. I was upfront again aswell got some more pix on phone but its being gay so heres some pics from a different website.

Guess I'm Back, Again

I'm back at it training hard. Gotta give credit to the creators of resperidone. It's been keeping me motivated again and just the other day I finally completed 2 complete laps around my apartment complex. I'm pumped and ready to go. I recently purchased a Bujinkan Budo Taijutsu DVD set that will help teach me all of the kyu's of the whole system. First lesson is i gotta learn a couple of japanese phrases and im starting to learn breakfalling which is fun as hell actually, getting a kick outta it. Once i'm done learning and mastering the 9th kyu i'm thinking about getting testing at a legit ninjitsu dojo around my place. Just another hobby from the jackal of all trades. One thing that I want to remember so thats why im writing it here is that, the specialized routine that i do is 1. Bear Crawls 2. Cartwheels 3. Side Break Falling 4. Frog Splash Jumping 5. Taekwondo Kicks & 6. Front Rolling. Plus this weekend I'm going to try to get my dad to work out with me. We (definitely I) might be doing some sprinting up this place that I'm dubbing Odin Hill. 
It's a pretty steep hill that will probably be hell. But it will probably be good for my cardio. I'm shivering just thinking about doing this mothafucka. One more thing that I'd like to close off with is that almost every other day I'm starting to remember all of the dreams I have. Very interesting. Maybe I should finally read that lucid dreaming ebook I have hahaha.
BBB - You will know what these 3 letters mean hopefully soon.

Song of the Day

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Tired

Been starting up the cardio exercises since this last monday. I'm really feeling all ackey from it yesterday and today. Need to find an effective way to balance both school and working out more effectively tho. I'm sure I will. Maybe I need to take some icebaths or perhaps realize that this is only my first week and my body might get used to it. One more month and it will be my 1 year anniversary with my girlfriend. Time fliesh eh? I can't believe it's been that long, we've had such good times together and looking towards the future. Its Valentine's day and I got her an Iron Maiden t-shirt, which really fits her in my opinion. She made my a nice vanilla wafer cream pie. Which I am going to proceed to be lazy and eat all nite. I'm exhausted but I think everything will be alrite. P.S. Since we like happy dancing, we danced to this song. I'd say its a pretty good cutesy valentine day song to silly dance to.

Also wanted to make a quick meditation journal entry. I started today right when I woke up. I had very calming music and had my timer set to 20 mins to start out. I know that I at least did that amount of time. It's just that my timer stopped, I probably meditated for an extra 10 minutes because of that, its all good. Some thoughts that I guess I had was that my eyes were extra droopy and I felt like I was getting a headache. NORML I dunno? Here's to the eradication of self-laziness hopefully

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Training Again?

Yep it might be a possibility sooner rather than later. Looks like I'm gonna be part time with my school program. Hope everything works out but i know everything will work out. This will free up my day tremendously to pursue not only getting in shape but anything else that comes to me creativitly. Once the time comes I want to take jujitsu again probably during the morning. Also, working again on cardio, cardio, cardio. I felt that even if I didnt understand certain jujitsu concepts, I made up for it for having the best cardio in my class (my opinion) so I want to get back to that. The beginning of this month my girlie and I actually began to run some miles. I'm very proud of her. I just got psychially and mentally sick during the mid of this month. I hope I can find more time to do it with her. We have a lot in common, can't believe I have a girl that likes to run, wrestle, listen to my metal and is funny as hell. I b's blessed. Same thing with my loving parents who have helped me out during some hard times. My parents are pimpin'. It seems like they like my haus more than the RV they currently have so I'm sure they will come visit more often. P.S. to myself, one thing I'd like to learn when it comes to submissions is maybe adding some Sambo techniques to the mix. I've been studying many different sambo holds that I can perhaps make work in a jujitsu setting

(Yes I can learn and modify from certain techniques in videogames. I also have some martial arts instructionals) Also Cam make sure you get off your lazy ass and start cooking some meals again. Want to make some more Asian delicacies and make more green drinks with watermelon and or pineapple/carrot splash. Till next time, song of the day.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Just

Like this quote

Anarchism is founded on the observation that since few men are wise enough to rule themselves, even fewer are wise enough to rule others. - Edward Abbey