Individual Thought Patterns 7/1/2014

Yes on this edition on Individual Thought Patterns I will be giving my intrepretation on the Tao Te Ching by Stephen Mitchell. The following is from ebook pg 2 #4

The Tao is like a well: used but never used up. It is like the eternal void: filled with infinite possibilities. It is hidden but always present. I don't know who gave birth to it.

Okay that was short enough. The google definition on what tao is the absolute principle underlying the universe, combining within itself the principles of yin and yang and signifying the way, or code of behavior, that is in harmony with the natural order. The interpretation of Tao in the Tao-te-Ching developed into the philosophical religion of Taoism. Okay so this in my opinion describes itself. Like a well you can take whatever you want from it within whatever feels natural to yourself. Maybe this is a silly example but maybe at this particular moment I want some strawberry ice cream. The universe is dictating to my brain stem at this moment to get it. It is in my natural state to move and get ice cream. Whether it is significant or not is up to the individual. But I am following my natural self. So in theory that would be an example of getting only a little bit from life's well. Me naturally decided to study acupuncture is me gaining a lot of information and this info is eternal. There will always be something to learn from it so I would in essence be using alot of information from the universe's infinite supply of water from the well.

There are so many different ways to live your life, infinite possiblities (self-explanatory) The possiblities of all you can do is always there whether it is just a passing thought in your brain or an action that you live, the universe is always there. As for the last line this might be a line that differs according to ones religious/spiritual beliefs. God coulda gave birth to the natural state of the universe. Or it coulda been the big bang theory etc. blah blah blah. As for what I think, who really cares, we are living in some kind of existance regardless of who gave "birth" to it

Neoprene Face Masks

I really don't know what it is, but I think I'm totally addicted to these things called neoprene face masks. I think they are used with motorcyclists but I dunno I love the design of these things. I'm somewhat of an avid sword collector. If you really want the hookup go to www.trueswords.com I've bought my inventory of sweet looking swords and weapons from this site for years! Ya I think I've almost purchased all of their masks. I think I've totally found a somewhat normal way to start wearing these. I'll let you know if it works. But, see look aren't all of these just so pretty.

Yes totally normal

Liv Kristine Appreciation

One of the coolest things that happened to me so far this year that I forgot to mention was I met one of my all time favorite singers, Liv Kristine of the bands Leaves' Eyes & Theatre of Tragedy.Its been a couple of years since I met a fellow musician. The first person I met was Jonny Santos when he was fronting Silent Civilian on that Ill Nino show. My dad was with me and the only thing I could muster up was "You guys are awesome!" Hahahaha. My dad was the one mainly talking to him and I remember Jonny saying he saw us representing and rockin' out in the front row.

The second time was when my dad, my friend Mark, and I went to this Demon Hunter/Living Sacrifice show. Both of them lovvvvved Demon Hunter more than I did. My dad was a huge fan of the Storm the Gates of hell CD. After the show we all met the lead singer of Demon Hunter and from what I can remember he was very standoffish. My dad straight up said he was a dick and to this day I don't think he's listened to Demon Hunter again. I remember becoming more of a fan of Living Sacrifice that night. Those mothafuckin' Christians were hard ;)

Those all happened quite a long time ago perhaps when I was in high school. This year I got to see Moonspell, Leaves' Eyes, & Atrocity tour the United States (What a line up) I knew I had to catch the Arizona date. I first heard of Liv and her bands back in I think 2004 when she was a featured artist on the Cradle of Filth song Nymphetamine. That was a popular song amongst some people I knew at my charter school. When I saw the music video the first thing that hit me was, who is this female singer? I was blown away by the pure angelic voice that I was hearing. She totally makes that song in my opinion. I remember the first thing that popped in my head was I gotta see if she was in any bands and the rest is history. I bought all of the Theatre of Tragedy albums and the Leaves' Eyes ones as they came out.

Okay so I brought my mom to that concert. Leaves' Eyes were amazing and I was happy to finally see them live for the first time. After the show Liv announced that she was going to come down and meet all the fans. I was excited but extremely nervous. I immediately thought of the Demon Hunter incident all those many years ago. Hmmm how would this go?

All of my anxiety disappeared as I saw her interactions with the people in front of me in line. I immediately noticed just how much of a sweetheart she is around all of her fans. You could tell she was very appreciative of all of the people that came out to see her band. She gave out a very positive and peaceful vibe. There were some well funny things I saw b4 my mom and I met her. These 2 guys were totally hound dogging her, cutting in front of everyone that wanted to meet her. Also there was a group of ladies that were telling her they liked the show but hated that they were having sound issues. ughhhh! She must have the patience of a saint I thought.

When it was our turn she gave both my mother and I hugs and thanked us for coming out :) Even though I am a HUGE fan I kept my conversation short and sweet so other people could meet her. I told her that the show was awesome, and that was a fan of hers even back from when she was in Theatre of Tragedy. She then signed their cover to their DVD that I purchased from the merch booth "We Came With the Northern Winds / En Saga I Belgia" and even got a cool looking picture with her that I still use as my facebook profile pic to this day.

(I've got the pic with me holding this dvd it's just on my phone will post later)

After this I bowed to her (happened naturally from all my years of being in martial arts lol) and told her to make sure they come back to Arizona. "Yes we will" she replied. I was so ecstatic for like a whole week after that. Leaves' Eyes were the second to last band to play so Liv definitely didn't have to come out. But, since she did she left me with quite a cool life experience. It's so cool when you listen to someone for years and they actually turn out being really nice people. This is how you treat your fans! Liv if you happen to read this, you are awesome \m/

For my friends who read this and you wanna hear some of her music check out some of my favs

Individual Thought Patterns 6/30/2014

Yes here is the part of the blog where I analyze a certain thing and give my own personal opinion on it using my own life experiences, knowledge, yadda yadda yadda. The way I see the world I think is quite different then society's preconceived norms. I tend to gravitate towards thoughts and opinions that relate to me and discard anything that doesn't. I tend to categorize stories in to my own individual way of thinking either using experience, clarity for my brain, or just straight up intuition. This doesn't mean that my thoughts on a topic is set in stone. If it fits for me it fits for me, it doesn't necessary have to be politically "correct". This means I may re-edit some initial paragraphs if I gain more knowledge of a topic or just come up with different thoughts.

As of now I am giving my first on passages that pop out to me from books. I've got e-books downloaded exclusively and for free off the lovely thing that we call the internet. These books that I am currently starting to read or as follows: Hagakure: The Book of the Samurai, Tao Te Ching, & The Book of Five Rings. Of course I'll pull from more resources as I see fit, but this is a good place to start.

Today's entry will be pdf pg 4 on Hagakure and the quote is as follows:

A certain swordsman in his declining years said the following:
               In one's life. there are levels in the pursuit of study. In the lowest level, a person studies but nothing comes of it, and he feels that both he and others are unskillful. At this point he is worthless. In the middle level he is still useless but is aware of his own insufficiencies and can also see the insufficiencies of others. In a higher level he has pride concerning his own ability, rejoices in praise from others, and laments the lack of ability in his fellows. This man has
worth. In the highest level a man has the look of knowing nothing .
             These are the levels in general;. But there is one transcending level, and this is the most excellent of all. This person is aware of the endlessness of entering deeply into a certain Way arid never thinks of himself as having finished. He truly knows his own insufficiencies and never in his whole life thinks that he has succeeded. He has no thoughts of pride but with self-abasement knows the Way to the end. It is said that Master Yagyu once remarked, "I do not know the way to defeat others, but the way to defeat myself. ''
             Throughout your life advance daily, becoming more skillful than yesterday, more skillful than today. This is neverending.

Okay I was basically just skimming through this one and it caught my psyche for whatever reason lets analyze. So throughout one persons life there is an endless persuit of knowledge and one has to study learning many different life lessons and experiences throughout. As you go throughout life you might have excellent skills in a certain area and think you might know it all. But as the rest of the paragraphs describes there is never a state of being perfect at something. You must be humble because there is always someone out there that has more experience. Also, with the Master Yagyu quote perhaps that is a way of saying as an individual you know yourself more than you could ever know somebody else. So basically I think its a quote of having self-growth of yourself compared to all of the fallacies of another person. We can never walk in someone elses shoes. Have the strength to walk in your own

The Art of Training & Pushing Oneself

Today is the start of my brand new training regime. I woke up hella early today. I did my first run on the Odin track in a very long time. Odin is a 1 mile run that I used to do with giant hills and shit. The track totally kicked my ass. I ran like my dad, which isn't very fast. My dad is over 300 pounds haha. I totally was out of shape even though I sprinted up and down the large part of the hill twice. I stopped quite I bit when normally I would run the whole thing with no stops. Still got a long way to go.

I'm on this cardio igniter supplement. I tried it this morning before I ran. It tastes pretty good. Hopefully I can keep this up at least for every other day or so. I also am in the process of finally going back to martial arts again. I'm not only doing one but two different martial art disciplines. One of them is dependent on my summer school schedule. Since I go during the night shifts, the dojo that I'm looking at only has night classes. It's not worth it if I can only go once a week for 90 dollars a month. But the brazilian jiu jitsu classes that I'm looking at are offered monday, wednesday, and friday in the mornings, so that works out quite perfectly. I just have to wait to get my car back again. At least it's at the mechanic.

I feel that it's time to push myself physically and mentally. Part of the reason is I want to get in good shape again. When I'm not working out I tend to get overactive and restless when I'm doing nothing in my haus. Plus I know it's a good way to get any kind of negative energy out of my system. Only thing preventing me is that I'm quite nervous about it. It's been awhile since I was involved in the martial arts. I'm just worried about if I can handle it again especially with my school schedule. I know my body will be pretty sore perhaps maybe all the time. Will I have the energy? All I know is that I'm going to have to become more disciplined. Nothing is impossible and I believe I'm ready to test that theory.

Hard work beats out talent when the talent doesn't work hard

Yea haven't wrote anything in awhile. Not been much too report until recently. Let us see. This half year of 2014 has been very good to me. I can't believe so far I have seen every concert I wanted to see. I have seen Moonspell, Leaves' Eyes, Atrocity, Dark Tranquillity, Omnium Gatherum, Children of Bodom, Death Angel, Tyr, Lacuna Coil, Dream Theater, Linkin Park, Iced Earth, Revamp, Sabaton, and already paid for Septic Flesh & Fleshgod Apocalypse. The most badass concert that I'm gonna be part of early next year is the 70,000 tons of metal boat cruise to Jamaica! http://70000tons.com/



I can tell everyday I'm gonna be hyped for this one. Theres already bands on there that I've never heard of but I'm digging alot. Didn't think I would be able to go to one this soon. I thought it would be a couple of years, so I guess I'm doing well financially. I hope Anathema, Within Temptation, and Hypocrisy are announced. That'd be sweet. So yes I'm a huge music/concert fan. While others go to clubs or bars (whatever). I mosh and fuck people up at metal shows. Thats how I party.

In other news looks like I'm gonna be an acupuncturist. Just got finished with my first semester. I did alright knowing that I was sooooo not used to studying at all. Last year at didn't count because my teacher in my computer class gave out barely had any homework and I basically got annoyed and bored with my Japanese History class. So I haven't had anything as challenging as this acupuncture business in years. I'll admit that I basically cheated my way through every test back then. It's amazing what long hair, earplugs, and other mischevious methods will get you. I believe that the college school system is corrupt so I believe in using any means necessary to pass these general classes that you have to take. But alas thats a story for another entry.



We will see how this will turn out. I basically have 4 years of this who knows what will happen. My parents seem to believe I was made for this. I tend to believe that I had to pick something, acupuncture and asian medicine just happened to be something that I had a wee bit of interest in. Maybe my love for it will grow more as I become more comfortable, and becoming being less of a lazymothafucka. I did happen to get a 94% on a channels and points test, my first A that I got without cheating so theres hope. Just need to be more focused and organizized which I'm sure will come with time. Tho, I will continue to have a nonchalant attitude towards school mainly because when I start caring too much I tend to have way to much anxiety. Things will happen I believe at my own pace.

I do know that I must improve my habits at least a little bit for next semester. I have a total fucked up sleep schedule that has not been helping when it comes to school. I would go to sleep at 5 in tha morning, wake up at 3 p.m. and ride my bike to school and get there at 6 p.m. Ride back to my house by at least 10 p.m. and do absolutely nothing till I fell asleep. Rinse and repeat. I still can't believe I was able to pass 4 out of 5 of those classes holy shit. But I'm already in the process of at least changing that. So ya gonna put at least a little bit more effort on my side.

Also, I've decided I'm gonna use this blog as an outlet for my adventures in acupuncture, studying, the martial way, life, and anything else that I feel like writing as one tool too help me become more organizized. So there,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,bitch.